Kate Moss covers the December issue of 'Vanity Fair.' (Photo: Mert Alas & Marcus Piggott)
The glamorous life of a supermodel doesn't sound so glamorous when Kate Moss talks about it.
One of the most famous names in the fashion world is Vanity Fair's
cover girl and she says she has done so much posing for the camera that
now, "I don't want to be myself, ever. I'm terrible at a snapshot.
Terrible. I blink all the time. I've got facial Tourette's. Unless I'm
working and in that zone, I'm not very good at pictures, really."
Moss, 38, reviews key moments in her life in the interview.
She remembers posing nude at 16 for a photo shoot with Corinne Day for The Face.
"I see a 16-year-old now, and to ask her to take her clothes off would
feel really weird," she says. "But they were like, If you don't do it,
then we're not going to book you again. So I'd lock myself in the toilet
and cry and then come out and do it. I never felt very comfortable
about it. There's a lot of boobs. I hated my boobs! Because I was
flat-chested. And I had a big mole on one. That picture of me running
down the beach - I'll never forget doing that, because I made the
hairdresser, who was the only man on the shoot, turn his back."
also says she regrets doing a 1992 Calvin Klein photo shoot that helped
skyrocket her to fame. "I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17 or 18,
when I had to go and work with Marky Mark and Herb Ritts," she says. "It
didn't feel like me at all. I felt really bad about straddling this
buff guy. I didn't like it. I couldn't get out of bed for two weeks. I
thought I was going to die."
Despite becoming the face of "heroin
chic" in modeling, she says, "I had never even taken heroin - it was
nothing to do with me at all," Moss says. She just wasn't eating. "Carla
Bruni took me out for lunch once. She was really nice. Otherwise, you
don't get fed. But I was never anorexic. They knew it wasn't true-
otherwise I wouldn't be able to work."
One bright spot in her
early career: A brief but intense romance with Johnny Depp. "There's
nobody that's ever really been able to take care of me. Johnny did for a
bit. I believed what he said," Moss says. "Like if I said, 'What do I
do?,' he'd tell me. And that's what I missed when I left. I really lost
that gauge of somebody I could trust. Nightmare. Years and years of
crying. Oh, the tears!"